Incessant Shufflings

May 11, 2005

We all love a good joke. Except if you are the fool on the hill, speaking with a thousand voices, unheard and hearing nothing.


ON GREEN VELVET

Dealing a heart
was my misfortune.
And at the wake of this last move,
I mooned, restless,
dangling on the verge
of another unfinished solitaire.

I turned the cards too fast, too sure.
My clumsy shuffling on purpose,
as if trying to maintain
the lucidity of an ordered deck
as if trying to stall the inevitable limbo
that follows a game of chance.

The boldness of red,
the tightness of black,
and the simplicity of the goal
simmers on the surface of my concentration.
But they are elusive.
An expert wrist flicking with ease,
my mismatched cards
and inscrutable longings.

After a thousand cards involving
a thousand choices
I am yet to deal
with the phantoms of discarded games
and the joker's hand
I've been playing with
all along.

blue rogue